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June 20th, 2018

One of the many reasons I love fandom - another rec

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Reason number eleventy-seven: fanworks of fanworks!

My latest story is basically a massage kink fic with character and shipping dynamics stirred in for maximum UST. The reception for it has gone waaaaaayyyyyy beyond anything I expected, and it will probably move into position as my second most popular fic on AO3. (Which gives me mixed feelings, I admit, because I'm far more attached to the fic currently in second place and consider it my love letter to Snape/Harry. But it's definitely not to everyone's taste.)

[personal profile] half_light, one of the readers of Soft Touch, contacted me with an idea for a prequel based on the lines "I re-experienced what it was like not to be touched. I craved it… My body kept me awake at night, aching. By the end of a week it was as if I were starving. And I wondered why I'd had to live for so long without knowing I wanted this. How much I wanted this."

Talk about a tremendous compliment! Of course I said yes.

Well, the fic is finished and posted! It's lovely and painful, full of the consequences of touch deprivation, soul-searching loneliness, and snake venom. The emotional spiral through which Snape struggles is beautifully described and very moving. It's also deeply sexy, which sounds paradoxical, but the erotic theme plays out in ways that twist the knife and help set up the story that follows.

If you like Snape/Harry, please consider giving this angsty, intensely emotional, and ultimately hopeful fic a try:

Awakening by faviconhalf_light


September 9th, 2017

Fic: Warm, NC-17, Snape/Harry - part 2

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Title: Warm
Author: [info]perverse_idyll
Pairing: Severus Snape/Harry Potter
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: ~5700 for this part
Summary: Severus still suffers the after-effects of Nagini's venom, especially in winter. Harry knows just how to warm him up.
Disclaimer: Not mine.
Highlight for Warnings: *Fingering, rimming, relatively nice Snape*

A/N: Still for [info]torino10154. Some parts are fresh out of the brain-pan, unbetaed, and allowed no time for simmer, so concrit is definitely appreciated. And yes, I changed the title, because it ended up being completely wrong.


Warm part 2 )


September 1st, 2017

Fic: Warm, NC-17, Snape/Harry - part 1

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Title: Warm
Author: [info]perverse_idyll
Pairing: Severus Snape/Harry Potter
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: ~5600 for this part
Summary: Severus still suffers the after-effects of Nagini's venom, especially in winter. Harry knows just how to warm him up.
Disclaimer: Not mine.
Highlight for Warnings: *Fingering, rimming, relatively nice Snape*

This is a total PWP originally started more than a year ago for [info]torino10154 in response to a Daily Deviant comment fest and finally being posted for the Bring Back the Porn fest. I apologize for my tardiness, and for the fact that the fic still isn't finished! Although I hope to post the second part later tonight or tomorrow. I hope you enjoy it, Torino!


Warm )


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March 21st, 2017

Art recs!

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Hello, my lovelies! I haven't been around much, because - well, I seem to require payback in the karma department; the universe is pissed off at me and life is a pretty joyless ride these days. But every once in a while, my fannish delight resurfaces. And I'm getting closer to actually finishing a fic! Yeah, will wonders never cease. Restoring my pleasure in the written word would go a long way toward making me happier.

But this post actually exists to share a pair of visual pleasures with you. Both Snape-related, of course, as that particular fire refuses to go out. And as with fic writers, we have some marvelous artists scattering splendor across our paths.

First, please hop over to Daily Deviant and bask in the pervy beauty of [ profile] akatnamedeaster's NSFW young Snape doing naughty and rather risky things to his equipment. The requested kink is sounding, which is something most of us will not want to try at home, but Kat has created a rosy, sexually luminous image of a school-aged half-clothed Snape (complete with a grey underpants cameo) having it off with a metal rod up his unmentionables. The coloring is sensual and warm, Snape is blitzed on sensation, and I loved the pic on sight.

Sounding Sev

The other piece is by a Russian artist whose work I like a great deal, but this portrait only turns up in an HP gallery that doesn't allow linking to the individual artworks. Thus I'm going to post the pic here under a cut, something I wouldn't normally do because it circumvents the artist's control. If there were any other means of linking you to it, I'd substitute that in a second.

But this is such a dark, intense, beautiful (that's the theme here) portrait that I want to share. I don't know how many fans have run across it, and it's too wonderful to languish unseen. NSFW due to nudity and a flash of arse crack, although it's entirely non-sexual, a view of naked Snape from the back peering over his shoulder like a suspicious, black-eyed raptor.

Snape by MariKaART )

I have other art recs, but I'll save them for next month when I take a turn on the [ profile] crack_broom.
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May 2nd, 2015

HP fic discussion: thoughts on possible rules and guidelines

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I've posted a long entry over on my LJ with some preliminary rules and procedures aimed at the kind of community I hope to foster. It's still in process, so any thoughts or advice are welcome. If anyone wants to take a gander and chip in an opinion, the post is here.

A commenter came up with the name [ profile] hp_salon, which strikes me as pretty much perfect. I don't think of this community as a concrit group, but as a social occasion for talking about fanfic. So [ profile] hp_salon we shall be. :)

April 25th, 2015

Art rec - Insatiable by john-n-mary

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It's rare that I visit deviantArt these days, but I happened to end up there last evening while I was procrastinating over something else, and discovered one of my favorite artists has resumed drawing in HP again after nearly a year's leave of absence. She just posted an absolutely gorgeous portrait of Snape dozing amongst his books, and it's hard to say which is more desirable, Snape or his esoteric collection of magical volumes. As the artist says, it's her fervent OTP. It's elegant and beautifully conceived and shimmering with color; the combination of book-and-Snape lust is quite overpowering.


I urge you to click on the image to enlarge it, because it's even more amazing if you can see the details.

There's also a lovely watercolor portrait of Minerva I just noticed, here:

Minerva's day off.
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June 23rd, 2014

Repost: Elegy for a Goat

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Title: Elegy for a Goat
Characters: Aberforth/Severus, a hint of Albus/Aberforth
Rating: R
Word count: ~17,500
Disclaimer: Not mine. Written for entertainment, not profit.
Summary: Ab has never been fond of his brother's protégés, but he's always had a weakness for goats. He's not entirely sure what to make of Severus Snape.
A/N: Written for [info]hp_beholder 2014

Part One )

Part Two

Elegy for a Goat

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Title: Elegy for a Goat
Characters: Aberforth/Severus, a hint of Albus/Aberforth
Rating: R
Word count: ~17,500
Disclaimer: Not mine. Written for entertainment, not profit.
Summary: Ab has never been fond of his brother's protégés, but he's always had a weakness for goats. He's not entirely sure what to make of Severus Snape.
A/N: Written for 2014

Part Two )


April 30th, 2014

Dashing in to say

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…there's an Anon Fanfic Feedback Meme on Dreamwidth if anyone's interested. So far I don't recognize any of the authors who have posted there, but hey, it's just getting started.

Meme is here

My life is currently a bit out of control, and I haven't answered comments from the last post I made, so I'm closing comments here because, argh, the guilt.
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April 16th, 2014

Fest recs and other things

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Still around but so exhausted, I cannot tell you. My mother is terribly sick and bedridden again, my sister is still in rehab and yesterday took 45 steps with a walker, and I'm financially destitute and for the first time in my life cannot pay my taxes. (I'm usually at the lower end of the income scale and don't owe taxes anyway, so it's disconcerting not only to be broke but to owe a staggering amount to the IRS.) My life desperately needs a reset button. Blech.

And then last night while braiding my hair before bed, I very foolishly stuck my face into a fandom_secrets post and learned to my dismay that long, effusive comments are considered a waste of everybody's time. The general consensus is that they burden the recipient with a lot of pretentious dreck that no one in their right mind should be expected to read. Well, crap. I wish fandom had handed out rules sheets when I entered HP. It's a bit embarrassing to find this out so far after the fact. Aesthetically speaking, I seem to be stuck in the Victorian era, and fandom tastes are evolving in an entirely different direction.

However, there are fests running now that deserve celebrating, and a couple of pieces I want to (briefly!) single out.

snape_potter )

hp_beholder )

February 12th, 2014

Fragment of things

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I still owe responses to my last post, which got knocked out from under me by - well, long story short, I've decided that I'm really quite adept at functioning under stress in everyday life, but my brain saves it up and takes payment in insomnia. I've seen more than my share of 5 a.m.s recently, and not because I'm an early riser.

Anyway, have some rambling tidbits.

--First, have you been over to [ profile] birdsofshore's HP Character Love Fest?

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Several of us Snape fans have already weighed in, but I notice that wonderful characters like Minerva and Albus aren't getting enough love. Pop over if you have something you'd like to add. The mini-fest runs through Valentine's Day.

--Next, an interesting possibility for some of the podficcers on my flist. Do with it what you will.

"Hello amplificathon community members,

I'm assembling a feature on fan fiction and shipping for my programme, The Blackwood Review, on the Edinburgh student radio station, I am hoping to use one or more short excerpts from podfics in order to illustrate the feature.
I am seeking podficcers who would be willing to grant me permission to use their work. I plan to talk about Harry Potter fandom and the Lord of the Rings fandom, so I am interested in podfic from those fandoms in particular. It should be noted that the show is for a general audience, and thus the excerpt used would need to be PG (but not the entire piece its excerpted from, of course). M/m, f/f, and m/f pairings are all welcome.

I will treat the topic, your fannish identity, and your work respectfully. If this sounds like something you would be willing to help me with, please contact me by emailing me directly at"

(Emphasis added.)

--Thirdly, in news related to my current non-Potter reading fandom, the TV show Person of Interest:

Holy mother of fine writing! For those familiar with the show, I beg you to go take a look at the amazing WiP Armor by [ profile] livenudebigfoot. The prevailing pairing in PoI is Finch/Reese, which if you've seen the series will not surprise you. This is Finch/Fusco, fastidious, physically damaged billionaire computer genius & stocky, bulldog-shaped bad cop on the rocky path to redemption, and it's full of suit porn and painful emotion and splendid writing and perfect voice. For fans of the conventionally unattractive, the sort of pairing that can't be taken on faith and needs a long, luxurious build-up, this is a lavish treat. Chapter 22 of 27 just posted, so I think you can depend upon it being finished.

--Lastly, two non-fannish recs for those interested in folk music. I had never heard of these musicians before, but I'll be waiting impatiently for future releases:

Fire & Fortune by Josienne Clarke and Ben Walker. The singer's voice is gorgeous, like cool, clear water.

Mynd by Phillip Henry and Hannah Martin. Another gorgeous voice, with a bit more dusk in it.
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February 1st, 2014

Well, that's a surprise

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I'm not sure how I feel about this, even though Ron and Hermione have never seemed particularly compatible to me. I suspect there's a lot of wailing in certain corners of fandom right now. To be fair, I do understand JKR's point of view, because it more or less coincides with mine; I'm just not sure it needed to be said publicly.

J. K. Rowling regrets Ron and Hermione's relationship

November 17th, 2013

What are you good at?

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I love writing. I love working my way deeply into a story, following its internal compulsions and clusters of imagery, which I'm aware are theoretically under my control but which feel more like a trail of clues guiding me to discover what the true story is. Perhaps best of all, I love persuading readers to follow me in my love for the characters.

Or at any rate, I used to love writing. I don't know what my problem is these days, but I don't trust my own judgment anymore. I can no longer tell if I've written a shapely sentence or a moving scene or simply a collection of flaccid words that imitate my memory of how storytelling works. Right now I'm depending on [ profile] wrisomifu to prod me word by word through the month of November, and let me tell you, it's a knock-down drag-out fight with my lack of motivation every damn day.

In the process of pep-talking myself, I reviewed what I think my stories do well. Of course, no one can read their own work entirely objectively, or get an outsider's view of their virtues and defects. We can figure out our selling points but we can't experience their impact in the same way a reader can.

So the thing that surprised me? My endings are excellent. Even the open endings. Maybe especially the open endings. It wouldn't have occurred to me if I hadn't lined up the fics in my head, but I realized that, with the exception of "In Infinite Remorse of Soul," which suffers from too abrupt a conceptual leap when it hits the finish line, I'm happy with every single ending I've written. I've earned them; or rather, the fic has. And I can still scarcely believe that I pulled them off.

What about you, oh writers and artists on my friends list? What are you good at? Have you surprised yourself with something you've accomplished? Is there a gift that runs consistently through your work that you can point to with pride? Go ahead, boast. I'd really love to hear what the rest of you think about your own abilities. Fandom firmly discourages any frank declarations that we consider ourselves talented in some respect, presumably because inflated egos are a pain to have around, but also because the idea that a hobby/silly idfic/derivative porn could ever be "good" invites claims of pretension. However, most of us are already self-doubting enough that we talk about craft in general terms and don't discuss our personal successes; we don't actually need policing.

So tell me what your favorite things are. In your own work, not someone else's. Give me examples. Name names. Point to particular instances. Provide links. I'm really curious to hear what you have to say. *chinhands*

1. If you feel a sudden overwhelming urge to balance what you're good at with a mention of what you're not, stuff the dormouse urge upside-down in a teapot until it falls asleep.

2. I know Sunday is a Day of Chat for many flisties, so please feel welcome to chime in several days later. As you all must have figured out by now, I myself am beyond fashionably late.
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November 4th, 2013

Formative influences, book version

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So I think it's time I abandoned the pretense of meeting the posting challenge and just … continue to post as often as I can without fanfare.

I'm currently avoiding working on a fic and living down to my [ profile] wrisomifu sworn vow of ten minutes a day by assembling a half-assed version of a meme I'm sure has circulated in one form or another in the not-too-distant past. For a variety of reasons, a retrospective view of beloved and personally important books has been much on my mind lately, so in a fit of procrastination I decided to put together a list of 50 books and authors that have shaped who I am, how I think, what I treasure in reading, what I aspire to in writing - in short, encounters that have left an imprint. (I threw in a special mention at the end whose work is entangled in the various infatuations of my reading and writing life, just because.)

I'd love to see comparable lists of whatever length if anyone enjoys doing this sort of thing. I'm not talking here about reading achievements, but of literary documents (apply definition of your choice) that sent you careening off in intellectual pursuit or struck you with a sense of discovery or seemed exactly what you needed to hear at that point in your evolution. It doesn't have to be a long list. You can pick a few titles and describe them; describe the effect they had on you and what exactly was so damn wonderful about them. (Although I grant this can be an elusive project. At one point I was head over heels in love with Kafka. His books were a strange, meaningful, parallel world for me, but I couldn't for the life of me explain to you what effect they've had on the person I am now.) The things we identify with, however obscure or eccentric, are often fascinating.

Without more ado, the list )

The last book I finished, Andrew Sean Greer's "The Impossible Lives of Greta Wells," will not make it onto any future list, alas. It's beautifully written but extremely disappointing, a failure of imagination that leaves me simmering with discontent and tempted to write a long, discursive, haranguing letter to the author. Ah, well. The next book on the stack is "The Golem and the Jinni" by Helene Wecker, and if I'm lucky it will cleanse my palate.
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October 31st, 2013

Fic repost: The Lost World

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I had intended to wait until I could post the long version of this fic, but I seem to have stalled out on it, and I'm beginning to think it may never be finished. So I'm posting this one here for completeness's sake.

Title: The Lost World
Characters: Snape/Harry, background Harry/Ginny
Rating: NC-17
Word count: ~10,900
Contains: *Character death*
Disclaimer: Not mine. Written for entertainment, not profit.
Summary: His son may have found the garden, but Harry's the one who keeps going back.
A/N: Written for Snapecase 2012. Beta'd by Loupgarou.


The Lost World )

October 26th, 2013

Nominate a fic at the HP Fan Fic Fan Poll Awards

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Let me revise this post to say: the nominations for the HP Fanfic Fan Poll Awards aren't closed yet, and the Snarry categories could use more suggestions from the past year. All other pairings too, of course, but I'm not qualified to speak things I don't read. Go take a look - maybe a fic you enjoy and an author who deserves more attention could get a little love by showing up in the awards. While you're there, you might consider voting for Rapture, a beautiful fic entered in the "Legacy Story" category. *drops large hint* (If you don't care for awards and polls and suchlike, please ignore this little trumpet blast.)

Rules, Timelines, and How to Nominate a Fic

To Make Nominations/Ask Questions:
Nomination period: October 1st - October 28th, 2013
Voting period: November 1st - December 31st, 2013
Winners announced: by January 10th, 2014

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October 13th, 2013

Posting Challenge, Day 7: 10 Things You Don't Know About Me

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Hmph. I'm having a devilish time getting back to a posting schedule. And I still need to answer comments and post more [ profile] crack_broom recs. So here I am, taking the easy way out and jumping on one of the latest circulating memes as a communications shortcut.

Most of this is innocuous, but there's a bit of unpleasantness under the cut for those who would rather avoid such things.

1. I am 56 years old, 5'3", and not impressive in person.

A grab bag of the whimsical, the self-absorbed, and the consequences of city living )

These ten things give an entirely wrong impression of the type of person I am. The ones that actually mean something, that reflect who I've been for most of my life, are two and five. Especially five. Very few of the things on this list tell you what's important about me. Or to me. They're the Cliff Notes/TV special edition of my life. For various reasons, mostly having to do with not burdening or freaking out the people closest to me, I've never told anyone about seven, and very few about ten, because most of my friends would have wanted to see the photos, and as for my family - ahahaha. No.

But now I've told you. I do hope this doesn't change anyone's mind about me. :)

September 19th, 2013

Posting Challenge: Day 6 - Snarry rec

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Oh my. I read a Snape/Harry story today that seized me in a way no fic has managed to do in a very long time. It's one of those character studies that takes liberties with canon while doing something so interesting and presenting it with such enormous style and heart and self-awareness, that I'm happy to leave familiar interpretations behind and let the point of view wash away my own entrenched prejudices. Also, the tone of the story is so strikingly sure and delicate that I trusted the author immediately. Part of the great pleasure of reading this fic stems from the clarity of the language, the emotional intelligence, the persuasive details. I bow to the writer (whose identity I suspect I know) for having achieved something wonderful and unexpected.

Standing on the Shoreline, an entry in [ profile] snape_potter's "First Time for Everything" fest.

Snarry as queer literature )

(NB: I got knocked off my posting schedule by some bad news last week, so I'm proceeding slowly and with caution. I haven't forgotten that I owe answers to prior comments, so please bear with me and don't be surprised if you get a comment notification two weeks after the relevant post has slipped your mind.)
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September 10th, 2013

Self-pimping rec list!

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This looks like fun! Don't be shy - come and offer recs for your most fannishly popular and your personal favorite amongst your fics. [ profile] capitu says it's not restricted to HP, so you can drop an assortment of links if you've got fics scattered across fandoms.

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September 7th, 2013

Day 5 - I am too old to still be doing this

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Before I plunge back into previous posts to pick up the discussion ball and roll it, I figure it would be wise to cobble together a post, because - well, here's what I did last night. I walked home from work around 9 pm, plopped down to finish eating the second half of the lunch I'd made earlier that afternoon, spent half an hour poking around online, and then opened up the book by Dorothy Dunnett I've been re-reading.

Seriously, I should know better.

In which I make much ado about nothing )

All of which is to say that I, um, have nothing to say. So I thought I'd regale you with it. Because I've had four hours' sleep and entered the zone of unembarrassableness.

Random pic of my cat )
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